I have always thought i was rooted in my faith. It wasnt until Luciana’s death and in the thick of grief that I realized the Love I had for God was for my own personal needs. I always thought i had a good relationship with Him, but i realized when I sought out to Him, i only wanted to hear what would benefit me. I didnt really want to listen to His Will, only my own. It wasnt until recently in my darkest moments, when i found Him for who He truly is. The “feel good” God no longer applied to me when my daughter died. It was hard to trust God again. I was angry. I am angry. But I had to sit with our God who is Just, & is good all the time. Even in this horrible broken world i have experienced first hand. I am broken. But he has not failed me, and only brought me to the root of my faith. He rebuilt my entire foundation so strong in just these short two months that i will never abandon Him again. He is the truth and the ONLY way that has got me through this deep dark tunnel of the unknown and grief. He is really sustaining me, and making me anew. I am forever thankful for it. #infantloss #griefjourney #home #slowliving #cozy