A LOT OF HURT. the reason i’m so calm is because i’ve been through so much mentally that nothing really bothers me anymore. & i hope destroying me made your life so much happier because i thank you everyday for letting me free well letting myself free. you turned me into a PARADOX which basically means that im happy but i never fail to think of sad shh. right now i’m my biggest enemy and i dont have no problem with that because i’m startint to love myself and put myself first. i know it sounds selfish but all my life i put everyone before me and it has gotten far but not far enough if that makes sense. my love is too strong my passion is out this roof and my guinness is unreachable but no one will see that or ever experience that from me because i just can’t deal with fake unconditional love ever again.