***OLD CLIP** Brother was so goofy and spicy. Probably one of the spiciest deer weve had in the best way. I miss making videos with him so much. Its interesting because after he died all i did was look through old pictures and videos of him constantly because its like i wanted to feel him in that way again and i wanted the images of the last 6 hours he was alive out of my mind. I looked and rewatched old videos for hours in the first month or so. Now looking at old videos rocks me to my soul and makes me cry even more and its painful and i avoid them. But i know avoiding his memory and that pain will cause more pain in the long run and even though it hurts like hell because i miss him so much, i need to keep his memory, the good memories alive in my world and be grateful that i had so many of them to look back on and keep those bad ones alive for determination in finding a way to make sure it doesnt happen again. #imissyou #durr #durrs #durrassicpark #animals #animalsoftiktok #funnyanimals #piebald #love