I year 😢 I often refer to events in my life as “chapters”. This chapter in my Book of Life is a painful one. It’s filled with a heartache that I’ve never experienced. I wish it was never written. This was a year of “firsts” without Noah.. All while remembering his “lasts”. I know he loved us until his last breath but mental illness & depression are cruel. They rob your mind of happiness, just to replace it with lies. Your mind becomes cloudy, you think this is the only way out but it’s not! I have many pictures & I look at them often, just to feel them again. Even though they’re already burned into memory, it’s better than not feeling them at all. It’s better than trying to forget something I know I never will. To me Noah is more than a memory. I know I will rise from the ashes, but the burning, the stinging comes first. Even though it’s hard, I know I have to be strong. I know I have to be brave. I can never let my family feel this pain again. Please don’t let your family feel this pain. You’re important and loved, please stay! To anyone carrying a heavy heart in silence, to those of us who put on a smile, then cry under the blankets at night.. Remember, it’s going to be ok… maybe not today but someday. ❤️ Why? Because this isn’t the last chapter in our Book of Life. There is hope. One day when the last chapter is written it will be filled with love, peace & happiness. We will see our loved ones again. What a beautiful reunion that will be. Thank you to those who have wiped away my tears. Those who let me cry without judgement. Your kindness & love is priceless. ❤️#lovelikenoah #mentalhealthawareness #gonetoosoon #stay