When “this won’t take long” turns into a Part 1 of ??? Guess I’m learning how to tile 🤪 #diy #bathroommakeover #guestbathroom

If Home Alone isn’t on repeat in your brain too, we can’t be friends. #homealone #holidays #adhd #doompiles #snapchat #hyperfocus #homealonesong

✨Where there is grief, there was great love✨ I haven’t shared a lot of our story and details of our relationship previous to this, but I was no stranger to grieving Jared, even before he left this earth suddenly in May 2023. I never believed in soulmates until him. I’d never met a person so mesmerizing, funny, charismatic, or felt a love that touched the depths of my soul like this. From the time we first met in 2019 until 2023, we were on a roller coaster of intense connection, love, and friendship mixed with a repeated pattern of shame, lies, silence and heartache. I loved him, even when I didn’t like him. I wanted nothing more than for us to be forever - but I never put pictures of us up or posted to social media because I was always sure the other shoe was gonna drop. It felt forbidden or taboo to talk openly about loving, leaving (and returning to), losing, and grieving someone struggling with substance abuse/addiction…so I kept it hidden - I’m sure I’m not alone in that. Despite his inner demons and struggles, Jared was a beautiful soul who brought SO much laughter, vitality and joy into this world. He loved my son and treated him as if he were his own. We laughed incessantly, danced in the kitchen often, and I wouldn’t let him touch my power tools 😂. Each time I chose to leave the relationship and draw boundaries to protect myself, I’d get a huge surge of motivation (coping mechanism/trauma response), and dive deeper into my DIY projects. Thank you for being my muse, and the great love of my life, Jared. As hard as it is to accept, I know you’re finally at peace. You may have left this earth, but you’ll forever hold a place in my heart. Watch over us ❤️ ❤️I’m lucky to have met, known, laughed with, and loved such an amazing human. ❤️Lucky to have been loved, accepted, truly understood and seen by such by such a beautiful soul. ❤️Thankful for the love, amazing memories, awareness, and growth that will no doubt continue to come. If you are grieving someone (even someone who’s still on this earth), I see you, you are not alone, and am sending you so much love❤️ #griefjourney #beautyingrief #lovinganaddict #grieving #soulmates #grievingtheliving

My thoughts on how grief is *hitty 💩 #griefjourney #griefawareness #findthefunny

If you’ve been wondering where I’ve been, grief is a weird thing. It comes in waves and teaches us so much.