because im so mf tired bro, im so drained, wakin up everyday knowing no one really gives a shii bout you, if yk what i mean. like yee ik theres ppl that be sayin they care or love me but im jus so fvcked up, that i just CANT see that. like theres literally nothing good in me so wtf exactly are they seeing yk? i feel like i’ve let so many people down. atp in my life i have 3 real ppl i would do ANYTHING for, like idk what i would do without them honestly.. but i jus wanna be happy again, like when i was TRULY happy.. im so so tired of feeling like this, i don’t wish this pain upon anybody. i don’t want ppl to notice either, im always that happy, funny, goofy ass person, & i just cant have them feeling sorry for me. i hate everything bout myself & im so unmotivated to even do anything in this life. i keep trying to find myself, try to get out of my comfort zone, but always end up back to square one.. i cant find myself… i keep on tellin myself that im jus never gonna be okay & i believe that honestly. but im just sooo exhausted bro like fvck, why meee. i really just wanna leave bro, disappear. youre such a disappointment (my parents words lol) & ik that, but it just hurts yk? like im fvcking struggling aight? i get it.. but im literally still here, trying just for my little brother at least.. i just NEED all of this shii to go away, please… goodbye #wedontwannabehere #notsohappyalex #bye4now