I have always thought i was rooted in my faith. It wasnt until Luciana’s death and in the thick of grief that I realized the Love I had for God was for my own personal needs. I always thought i had a good relationship with Him, but i realized when I sought out to Him, i only wanted to hear what would benefit me. I didnt really want to listen to His Will, only my own. It wasnt until recently in my darkest moments, when i found Him for who He truly is. The “feel good” God no longer applied to me when my daughter died. It was hard to trust God again. I was angry. I am angry. But I had to sit with our God who is Just, & is good all the time. Even in this horrible broken world i have experienced first hand. I am broken. But he has not failed me, and only brought me to the root of my faith. He rebuilt my entire foundation so strong in just these short two months that i will never abandon Him again. He is the truth and the ONLY way that has got me through this deep dark tunnel of the unknown and grief. He is really sustaining me, and making me anew. I am forever thankful for it. #infantloss #griefjourney #home #slowliving #cozy

The thought of missing you for the rest of my life scares me. But, wow what a beautiful reunion we will have again one day. Until i hold you again my sweetest Luciana. 🕊️ #infantloss #griefjourney

I spy my little Lucie Rose tattoo 🥀 . If you want to follow my more day to day life, i post a ton of stories over on I G @homeofherown & i even have a highlight named “Lucie” for more in depth of my grief journey and our sweet little girl. 🕊️

Through God's grace & tender mercy, only He who could, has carried me through my darkest moments. He has completely sustained me and has comforted me by reminding me of eternal life. There is no greater comfort than knowing my God, who also loved His son very much, yet allowed him to die on the cross for our sins. He understands my brokenness. He knows how it feels to lose a child. He knows what it feels like to grieve and He is walking with me through this Valley. I strongly believe He has given me this platform to share His Gospel through my brokenness and loss. It doesn't make sense to me right now. I don't know why I feel so called to share every detail of my grief journey, even if it's super personal and can be embarrassing. But if there's one thing I am certain of right now, i will continue to surrender my way for His. 🤍🕊️ #home #slowliving #infantloss #griefjourney #cozy

Philippians 1:21-30 🤍🕊️