Even after so much healing, I still have days where I’m terrified that I will end up in the same situation. When I found out I was pregnant, I was so excited because one of my dreams was to become a mom. But when my ex husband found out, his immediate reaction was denial & annoyance. He immediately started to treat me worse than he was already treating me (this is not a discussion for why I had a child with him in the first place. That is an entirely different story. I love my son & have never regretted having him.) Throughout my pregnancy I was very lonely, hungry, talked down to, isolated, used & so much more. Now although I am with someone who is the greatest man for me ever & has never once made me feel anything like my abusive ex husband, I still find myself scared thinking about being pregnant again. This is not a reflection of my boyfriend, this is just one of the unfortunate triggers that comes with the aftermath of narcissistic abuse. These things will fade over time & sometimes you don’t even know they are there until they are. When you have these moments, take a second & feel your feelings. Then take a look around at your new environment, your new life & remember they don’t control your happiness anymore. You deserve so much more than any abuser could give you. • • • • #narctok #narcissism #narcissism #narcissisticrelationship #triggers #narcissisticabuserecovery #narcissisticpersonalitydisorder #abusiverelationship #lifeafterdivorce #lifeafterabuse #lifeafternarcissisticabuse #toxic #relationship