I’m crying as I type this caption. Social media is just a snippet, a glimpse of our real life, don’t believe everything you see. Of course we’re only going to share the glitz and glamour, the good. Here’s a big reality check. We don’t have it all together 🥺 My husband suffers silenty from PTSD. Here’s a little back story. He lost his mother to murder when he was an infant. His dad moved across town and left him to be raised by his grandmothers, he ended up bouncing from house to house. His dad moved him out to my side of town a couple times but it wasn’t permanent until he met me, we were just 17. Fast forward we got married and he lost his big brother to murder. I’m not saying this is the entire cause of his PTSD but I know it makes up for most of it. He’s still struggling. We could be having a normal day, then in an instant I notice his mood change. He gets quiet. He starts to get distant. He’s here, but he’s not here. 😔 Having dealt with this for so many years, you’d think I’ve mastered how to adjust/cope living and loving someone fighting PTSD. The harsh truth is, I haven’t. I still cry, yes it seems selfish but when he’s battling PTSD head on, I feel lonely. I’m ashamed to say this but I find myself lashing out at him at times. He’d stay up for hours in a separate room and write, and I mean HOURS. I’d call him and would just fall asleep on the phone. In a sense you can say that made me feel less lonely I guess. Just hearing him breathe. I can’t get him to seek help, I’m still working on it. I pray for him, I pray over him. Lord We need him. He’s the glue that holds us together, selfless putting me above all when I was struggling with my own depression during pregnancy. Lord please save him for US. Please, if you’re battling PTSD yourself or living with someone with it, how are you coping? Does it get better? ❤️🩹💔 I’m praying for all who are fighting silent wars you don’t talk about. #ptsdrecovery #ptsdawareness #healing #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness