I woke up every single day, so uncertain of what i was doing, I did what i had to do regardless. It felt empty, it felt like an endless pit, no matter how many people i had surrounding me, I was mentally alone. Found myself one day asking why im still here. Couldn’t find a purpose to myself, was going through the worst phase of anxiety that I’ve ever felt before. I didn’t want to be here anymore. I thought to myself and asked, why am i so obsessed with the gym, why am i so obsessed with the same repetitive pattern daily. I found that putting my self directly into the problem was the actual solution for me. I hate that we need to have a certain something to be listened too. A perfect physique or something that deems you above another person. This mental process, grit, fortitude, is something that we all have to do day in and out in this world. You guys all have that trait deep inside and its just not being seen. Don’t ever think you dont deserve as much as the next person does because i know what it feels like to fight that mental battle all alone. I see you, I feel that your in this situation alone mentally,But yet here i stand to tell my story because its possible. I love you guys, controlled insanity. #fitness #fitnessmotivation #gymmotivation #gym #gym #natural #latspread #fitnesstiktok #transformation #legs #lifting #bodybuilding #back #arms