this second twin experience has been so incredibly healing, everything from pregnancy to my delivery and now newborn life I went through my first pregnancy in fear - fear of twin complications and loss, fear of premature delivery, fear of exhaustion and the unknown, fear of not being able to handle it all. my delivery didn't go as I had hoped for, ending in a c-section after laboring to 9cm unmedicated (born premature at 36w2d). I was exhausted and felt defeated. then came triple feeds that turned into exclusive pumping and quick burn out. one was colicky and we just couldn't get a routine down for the both of them. I was anxious about not doing enough or being enough. trying to balance work on top of it all. but this go at twins as been restorative. I thoroughly enjoyed my pregnancy start to finish, with pure excitement and hope. I made it full-term, and had a wonderful planned c-section experience at 38w2d. we've been successful with tandem breastfeeding, using pumping minimally. they have been on a good eating/sleeping schedule together. I am confident in my ability to care for them while still taking care of myself. it makes me wish I could go back in time and redo my first set with a different perspective and my now knowledge + experience. but I know I wouldn't be here today, feeling the way I do, without having gone through what I did. and for that I'm forever grateful 🫶🏼 so if you're currently pregnant with twins, or wanting to grow your family after a difficult first, just know that things get better. try going into it excited and optimistic, rather than from a place of fear. have an open mind with all things. and know that you're never going through it alone 🤍 #motherhood #momlife #twins #twinmom #twinstwice #doubletwins #postpartum #firsttimemom #momtobe #fraternaltwins #boygirltwins #boytwins #postpartumjourney #newbornlife #newborn #fourthtrimester #momsoftiktok