I might smile alot and act like everything is fine but deep down I'm broken and missing my mum bad. My mum was the only one that was really there for me. The last years we spent so much time together and I am finding it hard without her no one really knows how bad my illness gets and how I struggle on a daily basis but just get on with it because I have no other choice but trust me there's days I just wanna throw myself in bin because my health is declining and people don't see it because they ain't with me on a daily basis and I don't like to show it as its my vulnerability. My mum always said put yourself first Chelsea love yourself but tbh I don't even know what I am doing anymore. Its feeling alone even in a surrounded room. It's sleepless nights because of overthinking, being in extreme agony not being able to function as a normal human being. I could be writing for days........