I know i haven’t talked a whole lot on my postpartum journey but to be completely honest it had been one of the hardest things ive ever gone through. After baby came home my anxiety got worst. I went to the ER because i was so dehydrated, and thought i would feel better after that. I started to feel a little like myself but couldnt feel that 100% normal feeling again so i started to wean baby off of breastfeeding thinking that would help my problems with this euphoria feeling i was stuck in. Not at all. If anything it made it all worse. I cant leave the house i cant go out in big setting, i get so overwhelmed in the car that my brain can not simply focus on the road. I stopped texting eveyone back. I just simply dont have the energy to hold a conversation. Amd im constantly zoning out. My only safe space is my bed but im not a home body so its hurting me mentally. I have had many days where i felt like i cant get out of bed. Or could barely tend to my childrens needs. Let alone my own. I hate how mothers are shamed for going through something like this or even the lack of knowledge that so many people have on ppd and ppa. Specially after having multiple children. There have been days ive felt like ive hit rock bottom like im not even in my own body anymore. And to think theres other people out here going though the same thing but just dont knowit or what it is hurts my heart. Once i start to recover a little more and am more comfortable with sharing my journey i would love to show that this is normal. That youll make it out. That your not alone. Please please please watch over tour mommy friends. They need you. #postpartum #ppa #ppd