As 2023 comes to an end I can't help but feel sad, it's another year that's passed that Kate never got to see, I guess that's the thing with grief it's always going to be there. But looking back on my year I can't help but be proud of myself and see how far I've come! It's been a year of growth, highs and lows, big life changes, love, friends new and old and so many amazing memories! From starting the new year with a cold sea swim, to going snowboarding with 300 strangers, to selling my house and quitting my job, to exploring Iceland, converting a campervan and travelling Scotland for 6 weeks, to getting my skydiving licence in Spain, to meeting so many new people who have made this year unforgettable, I'm forever grateful for my friends and family and of course Coby who have made this year that little bit easier, I love you all. Here's to another year of growth, of adventures and making new memories. To all who got through this year, whether it was the best year of your life or the worst and you barely survived be proud of yourself. Here's to 2024. #newyear #grief #griefjourney #2023

Christmas markets in Poland anyone? ☺️ Location is Wrocław

My hearts been very heavy the last couple of days and it's made me think a lot about the me before, the me before grief, before Kates diagnosis, before I became her carer, before she died... The naive, blissfully happy me, the me that was confident, optimistic, kind and loving, happy me... oh how I miss him. It made me think what would I tell myself back then knowing what I know now, how I've survived, lived and rebuilt myself into a new me, don't get me wrong there is still a lot of work to do, I still struggle with my emotions and my grief, my life is still a mess but I am getting there and I am still moving forward one day at a time! To the old me, I'm proud of you and thank you... It's you who built the foundations of who I am, who gave me the strength to keep moving forward when all I wanted to do was go to sleep and never wake up. Take this as a reminder to be kind to yourself, you're far stronger than you give yourself credit for. #grief #griefjourney #fuckcancer

Day 3) waking up feeling so poorly, turns out I have Covid again! Literally had it the same time last year too! Luckily I'm well enough to head out still, but I won't lie as the days gone on I've been feeling a lot worse. Oh and such a miserable day compared to yesterday too! #januaryswim #coldwatertherapy #mentalhealth #grief #cornwall

Day 2) back in Cornwall 📍Duporth. I had a huge grief wave hit today, a mix of holiday blues, starting the new year, being on my own again after a short while. I very nearly didn't make it out of the house today.. but I'm so glad I did, the cold swim reset the mind and my body and it was such a beautiful day it would have been such a shame to miss it. enjoy some wholesome content with Cobes in the sea. #mentalhealth #grief #coldwatertherapy #januaryswim