When you lose a child your life ends too, you instantly feel as if you cant go on, 3 years after losing holden I realized that if I didnt change my perspective I would one ruin this life for my other kids and two regret letting my life slip me by. I always had it in my mind and I hear its common in child loss that you once I feel like I was actuallt living life again and becoming happy that I was βmoving on from losing my childβ but theres no moving on this pain in with us mamas forever. Instead I like to bring him along talk to and about him. And bringing this life on the internet is just to show other grieving mamas that is is possible to create life after the dealth of our babies.